Radical Everything!!!!

At a Yin Yoga class with Walter Lightner, I had a great opportunity to track my thoughts during this quiet practice for 90 minutes. It was so interesting! I find that I am almost conditioned to be thinking about “the other.” And there is no “other” in my life. So I go to past “others”…and I found it so interesting and kind of disconcerting because what I am wanting to focus on right now is self and figure out what this self of mine thinks and feels. I don’t like feeling that I am motivated by someone else before myself. Fascinating! I am quite aware that I have Radical Self Forgiveness work to do so I have pulled my book by Colin Tipping out and getting back into it in relation to where I am now I am sure is going to be quite revealing. I did that work around the time of my life 6 years ago and here I am again, more experiences more work and more personal realization on the way. Last time I got so involved in Self-Forgiveness my realizations were around shadows. I'm not sure where it will go this time. Shadow work is crucial, but in this case, it feels more subtle. Radical everything - Forgiveness, Manifestation, Self Forgiveness, offers so much in moving from EVER feeling like a victim to self empowerment, radical empowerment. I’m appreciating that I will never be “better” but always moving forward in expansion. Thank you Colin for the work……

Dancing Through Betrayal

Last night at Sierra Conscious Dance, Michael Stone, our guest DJ took us on a beautiful journey. Because it is Easter Weekend, I thought the theme was Resurrection. That however is the theme for Easter Sunday in Nevada City at his Sweat Your Prayers. At the beginning of the second wave Michael started talking about the actual theme....Betrayal. Of course, that is what Good Friday was about! So we were all asked to dance through our own betrayals and then into forgiveness as he moved us through the Five Rhythms. How awesome was that! I was able to peel yet another layer off of last year as I looked at how I had betrayed myself. It was lovely! Sierra Conscious Dance, Ecstatic Dance, Sweat Your Prayers....such a beautiful way to shed some much needed to be shed skin! What a gift!

Support from Radical Forgiveness

Wednesday, March 20, 2013 The body is so incredible!! I had been limping around for over three weeks. Two weeks ago I got a cortisone shot, which really helped, but I was still feeling a deep soreness in my knee. That felt completely physical after an injury that I felt fairly certain was an emotional response to some recent decisions I had made, which I was not totally committed to. After having experienced a painful year, 2012 , when I was not listening to myself, the physical part of me intervened to give me some warning signs. I experienced “Body Talk” last week and for an hour and a half became present with my body both physically and emotionally. The results are quite remarkable. The next morning my entire leg felt healthy and present! I still have some numbness in my foot, which I have had for years, but it was far less extreme than before I had the treatment. The treatment involved a lot of "releasing" of some old ideas I was holding on to. I am encouraged to continue with the work that I have been doing for years in terms of Radical Forgiveness and Radical Well Being. My body is such an indicator of what I am feeling and emotionally working through. I know that I give myself signs, for example recently my body was suggesting that I take a better look at how I am moving into the world right now and I felt a warning that I was considering going in a direction that I was not in full alignment with. I was unable to walk forward. I seem to be opening up all sorts of personal channels to look at. Sometimes it seems so crazy to me that at my age, I’m living in a little, seriously little, duplex sorting out the events of last year and the toll it has taken on me personally, emotionally, vibrationally and financially. And somehow I am at peace. I know that if I refuse to allow myself to feel like a victim and identify my feelings around where I am, how I got here and the HUGE lessons I have learned in dealing with my situation, I will not only have the ability to move forward without soreness and pain but even better….with a knowing about the course I want to take in my life as I know it in this human existence. It is clear to me that I see things differently than many. And it is also clear to me that I have to stay in alignment with myself, how I see and how I feel. We are all so incredible, and present in our lifetimes exactly where we need to be. Judging others only adds to our own individual confusion and assessing our own lives is the only way to move forward with any sense of self love and personal compassion. I am taking the time right now to stop judging myself, start listening to myself and to begin making choices for myself like I have never allowed myself to do before. Focusing inward, and feeling my own emotions, knowing that where I am right now is exactly where I need to be, is the first step towards moving forward without limping and without pain.